Who ever said the “first is the worst?”

Have you ever had a feeling that something is not quite right about the world? I get it every once in a while. It only comes once in a while but it usually hits me when I least expect it to. It’s like this wave that quickly washes over you. When I say “not quite right,” I am not simply implying of all the terrorists, wars, or slow drivers. I mean that the world really is not there. Not a feeling of a dream per say, but this feeling that nothing is there. That everything you know exists is simply just an illision or make believe. The feeling only lasts a few seconds, but when it’s there…wow, it’s very convincing. I remember what I was thinking though when it came. I was thinking about if when we die, and after the universe ends, the same thing happens all over and we wake up as a new person. Similar to incarnation I suppose. It seemed almost scary to me, that’s what life could be, just dying then living then dying then living, forever and ever, with no end.

I have respect for people that are deeply religious and as much as I would like to be someone like that, I feel at the same time such a strong dislike for religion. When you look at it from a non-religious, or as I am, agnostic, perspective, it seems so…plastered, fake, planned out, and obvious. If your good then you will have a good after life and if your bad you will have a bad one. Reward the good people. I think that someone thousands of years ago had a group of people that were getting out of control, so, to help motivate them to be good people and not cause problems, told them when they die they will suffer pain and anguish. If they changed their evil ways (good song by the way), then they will go to Heaven or recieve 72 virgins or aquire inner peace. It seems fake. I am not even talking about the idea of God or Jesus yet, just the bare bones of the basics of almost every religion. It’s just like Santa Claus! If your good you get presents and if not then you get a lump of coal. We all know that Santa Claus is not real though, but we believe it as little kids because our parents told us to. A lot of us believe the religions that we do because we were brought up with it from our parents.

What really grinds my gears are thing like “God was watching over me” and things of the sort. To say that you survived a horrific car accident means that “God has watched over you!” In order to judge it as a horiffic accident though, that means a much larger amount of people must have died in similar accidents, hence why it would take the “Hand of God” to help you live. What of all those people that died in the previous accidents? No one ever says “God wasn’t watching over them,” it was just bad luck or that is simply the way it happens. Why is it that if something good happens its God’s work, but if something bad happens it is not God’s fault? That’s basically saying there is no such thing as good luck but bad luck can happen to anyone. That does not make any sence. I do not care that the religious people would say things like “God works in mysterous ways” or “God has a chosen few.” Take Jessica Lunsford. Innocent child that was buried alive in a trash bag. Well if God “chose” her to join Him in Paradise, how could a good and just God allow her to die in such a horrific way? Why not have her killed in some painless and quick fashion and also not have the horibble thing of her knowing she was going to die? Then you see the bad murderers of the world die quick and painlessly. Now does that make any sence?

There is a video I saw that explained how prayer is an optical illusion. Christianity.com states that God answers prayers in the form of “Yes, No, or Wait.” The guy showed that the same principle can be applied to praying to a milk jug. Using “Yes, No, or Wait,” means that there will be an answer to anything no matter what it is! Anything you pray for can be answered in either “Yes,” “No,” or “Wait.” He showed that we would not believe that a milk jug answered our prayers but we believe that God does, despite the fact that it is the exact same concept, just a different idol that is prayed to.

Being agnostic, I do not believe that God does not exist, but I can not say that He does either. We do not know and most importantly, we can not ever know. Being simple humans it is way beyond our ability to comprehend. The most I can say is that I believe that God could exist in a higher demension, outside our universe. We can not, however, ever prove He exists though.